Ladies. We ALL struggle with our own insecurities. It's basically a part of life! But silencing those insecurities can be especially difficult when living with anxiety.
I'd like to share my body story with you all. I've not talked about it before, so let's see how this goes!
First: This is me in 2010 - right after I had my son, Isaac. (See pic below)
I. Was. OBSESSED. I was obsessed with tanning, with whitening my teeth, with barely eating, with my elliptical, with trying to get rid of my new-found mommy tummy. I was so insecure. And I looked the "best" I had ever looked in my life! I weighed less than I did in high school, and I was PROUD of it!
But...it was never enough. I could never shake that "I'm not good enough" feeling. Insecurity is an interesting thing. Thanks a lot, former abusive relationship, for making me doubt everything about myself!
But you guys, I learned how to become myself! And the best part is, I totally learned this while married. I think most people find themselves while living the single life. Since Nick and I had already started our family, single life was not an option for me. Living my best life (at the time) with a perfect balance of family and fun.
Then, you all know about our family trauma. This is where I lost myself again. I "let myself go". But in the most loving sense. It was most important to only focus on Isaac and on counseling and on healing. And on just surviving! Thank you God for our counselors and family and friends who helped us through the worst time in our lives.
When your world crashes around you, you're priorities change. Your views of the world and the people in it and what matters most...change. Sometimes it can be debilitating. Comfort food helps. I'm talking like ALL the tacos.
But the craziest thing happened. Today, even on my worst day, I know my body is pretty damn amazing.
Leggings and Tunics for Life! Even Layla calls my (much larger) mommy tummy "Mommy's perfect big belly." I gave birth to 2 perfect babies. I am the best at snuggling. And I can demolish a Steak Torta like nobody's business.
Yes. Perfect.
I love myself. I want you to love yourself, too.
With Love From,
Elise
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